I've got a problem I need to bitch about [v4]

As I now must start writing an engineering notebook, with a bit of a twist so it can be used as an example to others.

There are some things I really want to tell somebody since I've carried these feelings in my heart for so long and they're starting to drag me down mentally again but I partially don't want to say them because I fear they might hurt the person I want to tell them to, and the words might hurt me when I finally say them, but I'm not sure if I'm better off saying them and getting it off my chest or just carrying the burden for the rest of forever or not and I just don't know what to do. I feel that whether I speak or not I'll end up losing something important to me so I just don't know what to do.

I imagine this someone is someone you know IRL?

its not, instead its an old friend who helped me pick my path in life and I just sent the message. Honestly I'm scared about what they'll think if they see it, but I feel better. I just hope this doesn't end up coming back to haunt me.

edit: they saw it, we spoke, and I feel seriously better now

It really bothers me when I ask for someone's opinion about something and they balk because it is connected with me. I am asking for your opinion, therefore, I want all of it, good or bad, even if you may think it "hurts my feelings" because when I ask for an opinion, I am prepared to be criticized. If I didn't want your honest, negative opinion I wouldn't ask but I do...so I don't care if it puts me in a bad light.

All of that passive aggressiveness contained in that paragraph..wow

I need to type up an essay and I don't know when either of my parents will come home to type the password into the laptop and I'm quite frustrated...I hope they buy me a laptop soon.

Wait, if you're not on a computer now, how are you posting this much?

Cell phone and sheer force of will.

Respect++

Truthseeker4449 wrote:Wait, if you're not on a computer now, how are you posting this much?

Determination. I'm on a dinky iPod touch. Not going to lie, it gets stressful at times.

So I found out today that the car I'm looking at buying has been broken into before with a lockout technique and not a good one at that. How do I know? There's damage to the paint in the area one would use in a lockout procedure. The door and trim has also been bent. There's also a nice hole in the weather stripping, which probably explains why the inside of the door panel is green and the car has an unusual smell to it.

Weather stripping might very well be the hardest thing to get a hold of for this car...

Shopping for auto insurance....

jammed my finger in a door so couldn't play the test fire and typing is hard...

I hate it when I'm waiting for the tea to cool off enough so it's still hot and not scalding but then I overestimate the time needed to make it cool so when I drink it, it is cold.

So the general story I'm getting from the auto insurance companies is that I have to have another person on my policy or I can't insure the car because I only have a permit.


Also I just bit the inside of my mouth by accident >.<