I don't like...

The information I just found in my dad's area...

...how much I suck compared to most people who play video games online... I've just about had it with multiplayer games anymore...

...being a Gemini. Superstitious, I know, but I have all the tendencies of a gemini, with emphasis on the split personalities... I'm constantly flip-flopping from one emotion to another, with mood swings almost hourly it feels like somedays. It's like I'm two different people, and I can't stand it...

How my thirst for knowledge often leads me to learn terrible things. For example I just learned something about Corpse Party. I wanna tell someone about it to get it off my chest, but I also don't wanna spoil it because my sadistic side knows I'd derive more pleasure from them finding out first hand. And then there's those who have seen the whole game, and chosen to block it from their memory for good reasons. I don't wanna dredge up what are horrible memories to them.

...how salty and toxic I can get in any multiplayer game I touch...

I seriously just can't be a good team player it seems. I just end up throwing myself into danger non-stop, then just start flaming the chat... I hate it, but I just keep doing it...

On top of that, I just end up getting pissed off at myself for sucking so much, jealous of the other players who are miles ahead of me in skill, then regret ever playing these damn games and hate myself for not doing something more productive...

How god damn hard it is to get SSI, the last remaining piece to get my brother out of the house for good. Every last dime he's ever had in his name must be accounted for, even if he didn't know about it, must be accounted for. And apparently there's four figures of it missing. All because people have abused the system for free money and keep abusing it....

...Acephobes/Ace exclusivists

...how obsessive I am or can be over things.

*fidgets and paces*

*looks at ground*

...my username anymore after doing a google of jo kool aid for fun and seeing this as the first result...

How on my technical first day of my apprenticeship I have trouble sleeping in to my new later wake up time. This gonna take some time to reset my biological clock...

...I hate how weak I am... Tried to go to work today, and my body was like, "Nope! Not today!" I went back home and immediately went back to bed. Just woke back up a few minutes ago...

I also hate the fact that my paycheck next week is going to suck because of how weak I am...

I. Hate. Being. Sick.

jokool, you need to see a doctor if this is getting in the way of your job.

And to stop deleting your accounts... you know we don't judge you. All you make us do is worry even more... Please... see a doctor...